Struggling with the Lord

God, you knew me before time
Created my body in mother's womb
You planned my life from beginning

My mom gave birth to me
I grew to be an adult
I repented and followed the cross

Must admit to this
At times, I doubt that you're real
But then I come to my senses

All man has pondered you
We all lack faith
But you show faithfulness

Lately, struggle with your will
Wondering what's my next step
Why not a message in the clouds

Teaching me one day at a time
Must allow you to increase my soul
Must read and obey truth

Thank you, Lord
I have never had so much joy
Your ways are mysterious

It makes me cry when I think of my death bed
Your blueprints better than mine
Help me to believe and lay down my life